I guess I should give you some backround on me before you read this web site.Today I am a Christian woman. I do my best thru daily prayer and Bible study to live my life according to God's word and guidance to walk the path of His will for my life. Recently I feel God has had to come up with plan B for me, because I allowed Satan to slither in and destroy what I know was God's blessings and destinity for my life.
I was born in West Virginia. A hillbilly at heart I am. I love and appreciate the simple things of life, a good cup of coffee in the morning, a pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream, a good plate of spaghetti, the sound of rain, the beauty of God's landscape, waterfalls, oceans, the country side, mountains, trees, flowers, plants, and gardens. A beautiful blue sky that seems endless, the sunsetting illuminating majestic colors to remind us it will rise again, a clear night sky that displays every star, like diamonds above us, only lit by the moon. Then there is the wildlife. I see the purpose and beauty of all God's creatures. For me, the white tiger walking the jungle and the bald eagle commanding the skies are just a sample of the beauty God blanketed the earth with. Earth is a beautiful place, but we have to take the time to stop, observe and appreciate the beauty of God's work.
My greatest love is to hear the voice and laughter of my children and grand chilldren. To hear the words Mom and Mema. I don't think I could go a day wothout hearing those words, for sure I never want to find out. To hold them in my arms realizing my heart still overwhelms me with love, no matter their age, as it did the first time I held them. They define me.
I am in no way materlistic or hungry forr wealth. I appreciate the finer things in life, and we all dream of wealth, but for me they are not a requirement for my happiness. It's not what I seek. All I desire and need is the basics in life, just what is needed to survive and live a life. If God blesses me with more then I would praise and thank Him for His blessing.
Oh...one more thing...I really do not like wearing shoes...never saw the purpose.....So I guess I'm a barefooted hillbilly at heart....lol.
I had a horrific childhood being raised by a despicable, abusive, drunken Father. Thats a book all in it's self. At 15 I was united with my Mother, whom I had been led to believe alll my life was dead. With, what I know now to be, God"s help, she rescued me from litteral hell [sorry Lord, forgive me, but there is just no other word to use, as you know]. She swept me away to New York....
culture shock!!!!! For the first time in my llife I was SAFE.
She quickly became the only adult that I loved, trusted, respected and did not fear. How and why we were seperated all those years, is also a book in its self. She was an extraordinary woman and a great Mom to me. God called her to take her place in His Kingdom for eternity in 1999. I still miss her and at times grieve her death as if it were yesterday. But I know I will see her again.
Momma had a unbreakable, non-negociatable rule...everybod goes to church on Sunday. I had never been to church. Don't even think I had ever heard about God or the Bible prior to that time.
In a little church in a small town, I learned about God, His son Jesus Christ, Christianity, the Bible, and God's expectations of us from the preachings of a dynamic Pastor. There in that small House of God in that quant little town I would also meet and fall deeply in love with the Pastor's eldest son.
No accidents...both God's will. My life's path was cast.
I made this video to praise and thank my Lord God and Savior for carring me thru the past 3 years of unbelievable trials, hurt, pain, sorrow and multiple challenges, that I would of never survived without His love, mercy, grace, protection and powerful healing hands.
"For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways"
Please keep praying for me,
as I will for all of you,
as my challenges are not over.
Love in Christ
I began to write this book about 2 years ago. It began as just a Journal, a Diary of sorts, and at times, my most effective therapy. The last chapter still has not been written, I'm not sure if I will be the one to write it.
My purposes for attemping to write and share my story are..
maybe... to help other lifetime,short time or new wives, when the unbelieveable, unimaginable creeps into their marriage....
hopefully...to give awareness to all men, women, husbands and wives, the realization of the EVERLASTING destruction, devastation, irrepairable damage, hurt, pain, harm, mental, physical, emotional and spiritual scars, that adultery inflicts on, not just the betrayed spouse, but also the family God blessed that marriage with.
That's why God's 7th commandment is
"Thou shalt not commit adultery" and His 10th is "Thou shalt not covet".
Yes I understand that divorce happens these days, and many for very justafiable reasons. But my belief is, just as marriage is a life changing decision and commitment made between 2 people, so should the life changing decision of divorce be left to those same 2 people. Outside influence, opinions, judgments, side taking, (even if the intent is pure) has no place. It causes confusion, and hinders their right and at times cripples the ability of those 2 people to make that important life changing decision, that will affect THEIR lives forever. And it COULD lead to a one sided decision, instead of a mutal one, that maybe, should of, and or, would of never been made. And when a 3rd party knowingly and willfully interferes by injecting themselves into the middle of any marriage, in the form of adultery, to me, it is the highest level of disrespect and betrayal a human being can inflict on another. To me the married man/woman is not the only one accountable for the adultery. We are all accountable for our own actions. We all must conduct ourselves and our lives with a level of morals, standards, respect and beliefs of what is right and wrong. To live our lives with no clear, definative, moral line in the sand, that we will not cross, is immoral, undignified, shows a lack of integrity, standards, fiber and respect. All of that has the potential of causing us to be a dangerous person.
I guess the bottom line for me is, marriage is one of God's sacred institutions....it is not to be touched..hands off..back off...stay out...we have no right to be a factor in anyone's marriage but our own. 2 people stood before God, took vows from the Bible...let God be the ONLY one to influence and guide those 2 people in ANY decision concerning that marriage. Then there is always God's golden rule to consider,
“So whatever you wish that others would do to you, do also to them"
maybe... to change society's sinfull, disturbing and dangerous opinion, lack of respect, and regard for the sancitiy and honor of what God intended marriage to be held in by all..
"Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be undefiled, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous".
maybe... hopefully... let others know God is there for all of us at all times, He is as close as your knees, He will never forsake, betray, abandon, or give up on you.....
lastly... not maybe... but surely... it is written so I will have peace knowing my children, grandchildren and future great grandchildren will know who I was, what I believed in, why I did all that I did, and what happened to me and the most incredible man I knew, the only man I ever did, will, or would ever of, loved,... as seen thru my eyes and how it felt ...To Me.
Ten Things God Wants Us To Remember,
1..I am the Lord, Thy God, Thou shalt have no other gods before me.
2...Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.
3...Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain.
4...Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy.
5...Honour thy father and thy mother.
6...Thou shalt not kill.
7...Thou shalt not commit adultery.
8...Thou shalt not steal.
9...Thou shalt not bear false witness.
10..Thou shalt not covet.
But let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No.'
For whatever is more than these is from the evil one.
Matthew 5 :37